How many days until Christmas?

Okay, this is my last chance to have a full day of Christmas shopping. I've put it off far too long and I've been pretty selfish with my time. I don't know what my problem is this year. I just can't seem to motivate. So, I woke up early this morning and I made my list, I've checked it twice....okay not yet, but I will. I'm sure I'm leaving someone out.

My goal today: Shop AND bake AND get a Christmas photo of myself so I can create a Christmas greeting card. Yes, I'm a nerd. I'm hopeful that I'll get it all done. I just need to get going now....

Boyz II Men

Did you know they're back?
Sweet Monkey!

"Boyz II Men, ABC, BBD - East Coast Family!"

From what I see/hear in the video, it's gonna be good. How can you go wrong recording some sweet Motown hits? Yeah, you can't -- especially if you're Boyz II Men!

I hate traffic!

So last night I left my doctor's appointment and was supposed to get up to UNCC for an informational sessions on a Meeting & Event Planning program. It took me 10 minutes to get from the office to the place I would get on 485. Well, I was given the wrong direction on 485. Then it took me awhile to find the next exit to get off 485. Once I did that, I got into the wrong turning lane....again. The traffic on that side of town is horrible. People are not kind in letting you in their lane. So, when I realized that I wouldn't be able to get up there to UNCC before 6:30pm, I gave up. I am sad because I think it would have been really helpful to hear about this program.

Anyway, I met up with a friend for some Vietnamese and good conversation. That helped to make me feel somewhat better. Then, I went over to the Finks to get some "cocktail" attire for a party on Saturday. I am so excited that I might get to wear this one dress of Em's. It's gorgeous. I sure hope it fits me.

Today is going to be a better day all the way around. I can feel it.

And now an appropriate poem

Broken Dreams

As children bring their broken toys
With tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God
Because He was my friend.

But then instead of leaving Him
In peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help
With ways that were my own.

At last I snatched them back and cried,
"How could you be so slow"
"My child," He said, "What could I do?
You never did let go."

Please God. Let me let go. Give me the strength I need to do it.

I'll get by....

I'll get by with a little help from my friends.

Honestly, this has been a rough couple of days. I didn't sleep well last night which is weird because it should have been Saturday night I didn't sleep well. Strange.

This is an odd time of my life. Letting go of something that was a huge part of my life for a long time and then wondering what the future is going to hold. Letting go is always my weakest point. Sometimes I hold on much to the detriment of my emotional health. I always want to be nice and not hurt people.

Gosh, I want to believe there's hope for me. I don't mean that in the way it sounds. I just want to believe that there's HOPE. i want to believe that I can hold on to something/someone and not be disappointed.

But in all this drama, I have some amazing friends who are quick to encourage me that better days are ahead. They simply encourage me. I feel like I have my own band of cheerleaders.

I love my friends.